onelegbrynn Posted December 13, 2024 Posted December 13, 2024 1 hour ago, Curt McGirt said: If anyone's interested in my situation, I got both a new therapist and a new psychiatrist, who I just met today. She prescribed me Buspirone. Does anyone take or know what that is? I've read online and my mom said it's basically Zoloft. I get along great with both of them and things should work out well, at least with our relationships as patient/client, since I still ain't sober. Yes, I was on that for a while. I didn't notice any change whatsoever in my anxiety. I was on a low dose so that's probably why. Maybe I needed a higher dose? Not sure. It messed up my sleep too and it was causing me to wake up in the middle of the night. My doctor took me off of it and eventually my sleep got back to normal. I still have anxiety (and always will) but I just deal with it at this point. 2
Ace Posted December 14, 2024 Posted December 14, 2024 Had a good hypno session at therapy today. Tried to watch the Jamie Foxx Netflix special, but it was a bit triggering.
The Natural Posted December 14, 2024 Posted December 14, 2024 On 12/11/2024 at 10:14 PM, onelegbrynn said: Hi friends! Hope all is well. I've been away for a while. Nothing bad, just working on some projects and doing other things. I've also been hanging out on Discord and BlueSky a lot (Twitter not so much anymore). Just thought I'd pop in and say hi. Hope to get back to posting some more over the holidays and next year! Welcome back, mate! 12 hours ago, Curt McGirt said: I'm sorry to hear about this Paul. Best of luck to you bud. If anyone's interested in my situation, I got both a new therapist and a new psychiatrist, who I just met today. She prescribed me Buspirone. Does anyone take or know what that is? I've read online and my mom said it's basically Zoloft. I get along great with both of them and things should work out well, at least with our relationships as patient/client, since I still ain't sober. Cheers, mate. Always interested in how you're getting on. Buspirone is one of the few I haven't tried so sorry I can't help you there. 1
The Natural Posted December 14, 2024 Posted December 14, 2024 Did a Gym Rig Circuit class last night for the first time. You do 10 exercises for 40 seconds switch stations for 3 rounds. It includes to name a few: mountain planks, squat thrusts I hate, a bar attached to the ground with a weight plate attached to it you lift up, bouncing a medicine ball off a trampoline, catching it and throwing it to the ground. When Joe was showing the exercises, I thought I'm fucked as I've never done anything like this, the Cerebral Palsy making my body work five times harder than those without doing the same thing and I'm fat. I stuck it out completing the whole thing. Really enjoyed it. Treated myself to a Shimla Spice curry afterwards as I've always had one in December long before losing Mum and every year after plus I'd gone over a 24 hours fast. It's expensive at Shimla Spice but it's worth it as a treat every few months. Tired as fuck today as I haven't slept the diazepam off and I ache like hell too. 1
zendragon Posted December 14, 2024 Posted December 14, 2024 7 hours ago, The Natural said: Did a Gym Rig Circuit class last night for the first time. You do 10 exercises for 40 seconds switch stations for 3 rounds. It includes to name a few: mountain planks, squat thrusts I hate, a bar attached to the ground with a weight plate attached to it you lift up, bouncing a medicine ball off a trampoline, catching it and throwing it to the ground. When Joe was showing the exercises, I thought I'm fucked as I've never done anything like this, the Cerebral Palsy making my body work five times harder than those without doing the same thing and I'm fat. I stuck it out completing the whole thing. Really enjoyed it. Treated myself to a Shimla Spice curry afterwards as I've always had one in December long before losing Mum and every year after plus I'd gone over a 24 hours fast. It's expensive at Shimla Spice but it's worth it as a treat every few months. Tired as fuck today as I haven't slept the diazepam off and I ache like hell too. Just finished taking an online Adapted Physical Activity course with a section on CP that made me think of you. Keep up the good work 1
zendragon Posted December 14, 2024 Posted December 14, 2024 20 hours ago, Curt McGirt said: Well, you know what I think about THAT one. And no, it's at least 3/4s Gatorade Zero. (I don't mean to make light of this but... come on, you just gotta laugh sometimes.) I'm sorry to hear about this Paul. Best of luck to you bud. If anyone's interested in my situation, I got both a new therapist and a new psychiatrist, who I just met today. She prescribed me Buspirone. Does anyone take or know what that is? I've read online and my mom said it's basically Zoloft. I get along great with both of them and things should work out well, at least with our relationships as patient/client, since I still ain't sober. You should probably read this (yeah I know I'm breaking the rules and this needs to go to the Discord) https://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2024/dec/13/jay-z-rape-allegation-impunity-hip-hop As I spoke with my psychiatrist about today, nothing ever changes. regarding the Jay-Z/Diddy stuff... are we really suprised when so much of Hip Hop has been built on an image of Misogynoir
Curt McGirt Posted December 14, 2024 Posted December 14, 2024 (edited) This is pretty fucked up. I'm on another "hit the wall" moment with my binging, and had to tell my folks, because I couldn't walk well enough to get to a therapist appointment that they charge $150 AN APPOINTMENT if you miss one. And then I see on Facebook a post from a friend, who's had a long history of substance abuse/alcoholism. He went into the hospital to get help. He had to piss really bad. So because he was a "fall risk" (which I am familiar with having had a similar circumstance) they wouldn't let him use the head, so they gave him a canister, bottle, whatever you call it. He was so fucked up he missed the bottle and got piss on the floor, and he told them. A cop -- a Sergeant -- came in and rubbed his face in it and beat the fuck out of him so bad he got a brain hemorrhage. Yeah. Then he was told by staff, or someone, that this sergeant got arrested over it, but he had "friends" and if the cops saw him again that he was gonna get "beat down". You can read between the lines on that one. He's undergoing surgery in a couple of hours. He has a 70% chance of dying. He could lose his reading skills, probably all kinds of shit. And he's a professor of philosophy at a college. Tenured. Every friend aside from me and one other, he said, has disowned him from his behavior. His family too, because he was drunk and threatened to kill his brother in law. He has a kid and his wife stole a couple grand from him and is trying to take the child, and he's in debt to the tune of $10,000+ dollars. Now he's not answering the phone. Edited December 14, 2024 by Curt McGirt 3
Curt McGirt Posted December 14, 2024 Posted December 14, 2024 Oh, and I forgot to mention he's been diagnosed as bipolar and having dissociative identity disorder. Split personalities. I love this fucking guy, who I've known for years and always trusted through all kinds of shit, and I'm helpless, and I got to just wait out the DTs, and for a phonecall.
onelegbrynn Posted December 14, 2024 Posted December 14, 2024 That’s a horrible situation Curt and thank you for sharing. Please know that you can always message me if you ever need someone to talk to. Much love to you and I really, really hope things turn out ok. 1 1
Curt McGirt Posted December 15, 2024 Posted December 15, 2024 (edited) He survived. They shaved his head and put a stint in his fucking brain. I noticed a stutter sometimes in his speech that wasn't there before. Who knows if it'll go away. We talked a long time. He's got nobody else but his drummer now, they all abandoned him. He wants to talk to his mother and she won't. His father is a piece of shit who used to beat him and she never believed him, so maybe it's for the best. He's still got the kid, but the wife is vengeful; I don't know how they broke up and don't want to ask. It's probably the obvious. He has to take a breathalyzer just to have his son for a day or so. The kid's wonderful; got his mother's looks (she's beautiful, Mexican/Native heritage) and his father's acumen (the kid can read whole paragraphs at the age of three). He already looks like he's six and everyone believes that. So, he's got that, and his pets, and he's handcuffed to a bed right now, and they already let the sergeant out of jail -- that's the first thing they told him. He's not gonna stop drinking either. He's tried so many -- so many -- medications and none of them took. But christ, the man's written two books on Nietzsche and been published professionally and offered a job in Korea. Yet he told ME that I'm the smartest person he's ever met. I am not the smartest person anyone's ever met, depending on the person. I won't know when he's dead until he stops calling or posting on Facebook. I talked to the therapist on the phone and basically recalled my whole life's history besides some things I can't talk about on the phone in the house. So, that's been my day. Thank you for the sympathy, and for listening, and just being here and you. EDIT: I forgot to mention he lost his best friend over a decade ago from drinking himself to death in his 20s. He never got over it. I knew the guy. I let him hold onto a 12 pack of OE 800 (which I'd never seen in can form), the good old 8-ball, forgot it in his house -- and he died two days later. Edited December 15, 2024 by Curt McGirt 1 1
The Natural Posted December 15, 2024 Posted December 15, 2024 8 hours ago, zendragon said: Just finished taking an online Adapted Physical Activity course with a section on CP that made me think of you. Keep up the good work Thank you. If I can be of any further help about living with Cerebral Palsy, I'd be happy to. 1
The Natural Posted December 15, 2024 Posted December 15, 2024 5 hours ago, Curt McGirt said: This is pretty fucked up. I'm on another "hit the wall" moment with my binging, and had to tell my folks, because I couldn't walk well enough to get to a therapist appointment that they charge $150 AN APPOINTMENT if you miss one. And then I see on Facebook a post from a friend, who's had a long history of substance abuse/alcoholism. He went into the hospital to get help. He had to piss really bad. So because he was a "fall risk" (which I am familiar with having had a similar circumstance) they wouldn't let him use the head, so they gave him a canister, bottle, whatever you call it. He was so fucked up he missed the bottle and got piss on the floor, and he told them. A cop -- a Sergeant -- came in and rubbed his face in it and beat the fuck out of him so bad he got a brain hemorrhage. Yeah. Then he was told by staff, or someone, that this sergeant got arrested over it, but he had "friends" and if the cops saw him again that he was gonna get "beat down". You can read between the lines on that one. He's undergoing surgery in a couple of hours. He has a 70% chance of dying. He could lose his reading skills, probably all kinds of shit. And he's a professor of philosophy at a college. Tenured. Every friend aside from me and one other, he said, has disowned him from his behavior. His family too, because he was drunk and threatened to kill his brother in law. He has a kid and his wife stole a couple grand from him and is trying to take the child, and he's in debt to the tune of $10,000+ dollars. Now he's not answering the phone. Thinking of you, mate. My inbox here is always open if you need to talk. Best wishes, bud. 1
DragonZombie Posted December 15, 2024 Posted December 15, 2024 Probably are other populated worlds out there or even Earths in this universe. Maybe the Multiverse theory is true too, and hopefully too the reboot theories of the universe going through rebirths. This world right now is a neutropia, both Utopian and Dystopian in many ways.
Shartnado Posted December 16, 2024 Posted December 16, 2024 14 hours ago, DragonZombie said: Probably are other populated worlds out there or even Earths in this universe. Maybe the Multiverse theory is true too, and hopefully too the reboot theories of the universe going through rebirths. This world right now is a neutropia, both Utopian and Dystopian in many ways. Yeah, Utopia for the bad guys and Dystopia for the good guys, for the most part. 2
Death From Above Posted December 16, 2024 Posted December 16, 2024 On 12/15/2024 at 11:44 AM, DragonZombie said: Probably are other populated worlds out there or even Earths in this universe. Maybe the Multiverse theory is true too, and hopefully too the reboot theories of the universe going through rebirths. This world right now is a neutropia, both Utopian and Dystopian in many ways. A question that my mind simply cannot wrap itself around is "what existed before time started", I don't think the human brain can actually handle the concept of infinity. It's like trying to explain C++ to a chimp. 1
Cobra Commander Posted December 21, 2024 Posted December 21, 2024 (edited) Just had a normal one of realizing the comedy show that was built around improv and fictionalized celebs wasn’t “It’s Always Sunny”, but “Curb Your Enthusiasm” (you see, I was reading the Larry Sanders Show wiki entry) Although I don’t really watch either show so IASIP could have a lot of improv and I wouldn’t know Edited December 21, 2024 by Cobra Commander
Contentious C Posted December 23, 2024 Posted December 23, 2024 Pretty sure a cat pissed on my desktop computer at some point about 5-6 weeks ago, and the damn thing finally quit working from whatever damage that caused (I think to the CMOS battery cradle and possibly the South Bridge chip). I'd been having what appeared to be RAM problems for a couple of weeks, pulled the allegedly bad sticks, got it stable for a couple weeks, and then it died the rest of the way yesterday. There goes another $140 I don't have from being unemployed for over a year to replace a second motherboard after one died in September. 1
The Natural Posted December 23, 2024 Posted December 23, 2024 16 minutes ago, Contentious C said: Pretty sure a cat pissed on my desktop computer at some point about 5-6 weeks ago, and the damn thing finally quit working from whatever damage that caused (I think to the CMOS battery cradle and possibly the South Bridge chip). I'd been having what appeared to be RAM problems for a couple of weeks, pulled the allegedly bad sticks, got it stable for a couple weeks, and then it died the rest of the way yesterday. There goes another $140 I don't have from being unemployed for over a year to replace a second motherboard after one died in September. Damn. Sorry to read that.
Technico Support Posted December 23, 2024 Posted December 23, 2024 On 12/21/2024 at 4:55 AM, Cobra Commander said: Just had a normal one of realizing the comedy show that was built around improv and fictionalized celebs wasn’t “It’s Always Sunny”, but “Curb Your Enthusiasm” (you see, I was reading the Larry Sanders Show wiki entry) Although I don’t really watch either show so IASIP could have a lot of improv and I wouldn’t know I’ve watched Curb all the way through 2-3 times and can’t recommend it enough. 1
Nice Guy Eddie Posted December 23, 2024 Posted December 23, 2024 CYE is great. It's my 2nd favorite show behind Seinfeld. 2
RazorbladeKiss87 Posted December 24, 2024 Posted December 24, 2024 Christmas is the one day the restaurant is closed but on Christmas Eve we're open and we just happen to be right beside a shopping plaza. I decided I didn't want to deal with servers trying to order food in the middle of the craziness so I just got home from cooking 24 pounds of chicken fried rice (that's just the rice, I didn't weigh the veggies, chicken and eggs) alongside sweet and sour chicken and General Tsao's. I whipped up a pineapple bbq sauce for my portion. I also made up a bunch of coupons for one free meal of the recipient's choosing, courtesy of "Chef" RazorbladeKiss87. Unfortunately, I didn't think about the way 10 years of kitchen work would impact my writing. I'm halfway through the cards and my wrist is killing me. I'm going to power through these, crash and get through tomorrow. I bought a 500mg gummy and plan on eating it once I get home tomorrow. Christmas is the first day since I got out that I will not have any responsibility. Sadly, a lot of my family members still aren't ready to have me back at family gatherings so I'll be spending the day alone in a hotel room but it's okay. I'm probably going to watch some wrestling and sleep in for once. 4
The Natural Posted December 24, 2024 Posted December 24, 2024 3 hours ago, RazorbladeKiss87 said: Christmas is the one day the restaurant is closed but on Christmas Eve we're open and we just happen to be right beside a shopping plaza. I decided I didn't want to deal with servers trying to order food in the middle of the craziness so I just got home from cooking 24 pounds of chicken fried rice (that's just the rice, I didn't weigh the veggies, chicken and eggs) alongside sweet and sour chicken and General Tsao's. I whipped up a pineapple bbq sauce for my portion. I also made up a bunch of coupons for one free meal of the recipient's choosing, courtesy of "Chef" RazorbladeKiss87. Unfortunately, I didn't think about the way 10 years of kitchen work would impact my writing. I'm halfway through the cards and my wrist is killing me. I'm going to power through these, crash and get through tomorrow. I bought a 500mg gummy and plan on eating it once I get home tomorrow. Christmas is the first day since I got out that I will not have any responsibility. Sadly, a lot of my family members still aren't ready to have me back at family gatherings so I'll be spending the day alone in a hotel room but it's okay. I'm probably going to watch some wrestling and sleep in for once. Good on you doing that amount of grub. We're here for you, mate. 1
SirFozzie Posted December 24, 2024 Posted December 24, 2024 (edited) So, I got an early Xmas present. Well, my PCA got me some gifts too, but that's not what I'm referring to. Trying to stop Duke the Monster Dog from wriggling under the gate to check the people in the house (cleaners), I was in an awkward position (bent over, holding the dog's collar, clipped one heel with the other foot, and went down HARD. The good news is that I was able to twist and take the main impact to my knee and the secondary impact to the shoulder/chest area. The bad news is that they're opposite sides of the body (left knee, right shoulder/chest area), so the bruises that are popping up are painful enough that there is NO position that is comfortable resting. Nothing broken, thank god, but even with losing approximately 30 pounds over the second half of 2024 thanks partially due to tirzepatide), that's a LOT of impact. As things stand, not sure I'll be up to making the 95 minute drive (more accurately ride) for xmas dinner with the extended family. Edited December 24, 2024 by SirFozzie 4
The Natural Posted December 24, 2024 Posted December 24, 2024 43 minutes ago, SirFozzie said: So, I got an early Xmas present. Well, my PCA got me some gifts too, but that's not what I'm referring to. Trying to stop Duke the Monster Dog from wriggling under the gate to check the people in the house (cleaners), I was in an awkward position (bent over, holding the dog's collar, clipped one heel with the other foot, and went down HARD. The good news is that I was able to twist and take the main impact to my knee and the secondary impact to the shoulder/chest area. The bad news is that they're opposite sides of the body (left knee, right shoulder/chest area), so the bruises that are popping up are painful enough that there is NO position that is comfortable resting. Nothing broken, thank god, but even with losing approximately 30 pounds over the second half of 2024 thanks partially due to tirzepatide), that's a LOT of impact. As things stand, not sure I'll be up to making the 95 minute drive (more accurately ride) for xmas dinner with the extended family. Oww. Get well soon. 1
Curt McGirt Posted December 24, 2024 Posted December 24, 2024 (edited) 11 hours ago, RazorbladeKiss87 said: I just got home from cooking 24 pounds of chicken fried rice (that's just the rice, I didn't weigh the veggies, chicken and eggs) alongside sweet and sour chicken and General Tsao's. That reminds me of the New Year's I wrangled 45 Caesar salads plus apps; chef was proud. (He also tried to get me to lift a whole side of beef up the stairs and I barely made it IIRC.) That was the only year I did that; boss wanted me out after a GM got me rehired from a firing so he hired a new chef after old one left to go work for Sysco. This kid was basically told to push me out and it worked. I was on the way out the door and boss asked me where I was going, I said "I quit... asshole." He came at me saying "what did you call me" and I just walked past. He said "you've got to give me back the coat" so I ripped it off with the buttons going everywhere and threw it in the bushes That was my first and last food service job. Hey Natural, since Britain shuts down during Xmas, what do you typically do? Just stay in and eat there? EDIT: Working at that place really was like you imagine a restaurant from reading Tony Bourdain. Owner made his money for the purchase off of drug deals, servers snorting dope in the bathroom, everything eventually getting run into the ground. The place was high-level and booming when I worked there and I made more money off tips working front-end than I ever made at any job ever. 20 years later? I talk to somebody about going there and they had to seat themselves; the place was dead. Edited December 24, 2024 by Curt McGirt 1
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