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Thanks twistor. Since you've been so brave I guess I'll fess up: I've been off the wagon for a couple months now unfortunately. I'd have week long spells where I could play catch-up with sobriety but keep falling. Today I decided to dry out again and have thankfully made it without puking/dry heaving for an entire day, though I've unfortunately found I get some neuropathy in spots on my body. It's gone away so far but that scares the living shit out of me. The shakes are also setting me off because my dad noticed them at one point before they confronted me (and we actually argued for the first time instead of a peaceful conversation) and I thought "nah, I keep em away, how did he notice?" I ate dinner and was hiding my hands or keeping them occupied the whole time. Paranoia to the max. It's horrible. 

I guess the only upside is that I'm drinking the least I have in my entire life, typically just relying on airplane bottles... but those rattlers, as I call them (because of the clacking they do when I have to throw them away from their hiding spots), stack up. And I believe that I slammed my foot without realizing it one night and that led to me finding out about my bone spur, which is a mixed blessing. 

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Another problem with coming off aside from the withdrawals is the lack of dopamine really fucks with my medication and for two or three days give or take I get super depressed again. It goes away but I can definitely tell the meds aren't working right. 

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7 hours ago, The Natural said:

My cousin is gay, I found out she's having a baby with her long time partner last night. What a pleasant surprise!

Congratulations Uncle Paul

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1 hour ago, Curt McGirt said:

Thanks twistor. Since you've been so brave I guess I'll fess up: I've been off the wagon for a couple months now unfortunately. I'd have week long spells where I could play catch-up with sobriety but keep falling. Today I decided to dry out again and have thankfully made it without puking/dry heaving for an entire day, though I've unfortunately found I get some neuropathy in spots on my body. It's gone away so far but that scares the living shit out of me. The shakes are also setting me off because my dad noticed them at one point before they confronted me (and we actually argued for the first time instead of a peaceful conversation) and I thought "nah, I keep em away, how did he notice?" I ate dinner and was hiding my hands or keeping them occupied the whole time. Paranoia to the max. It's horrible. 

I guess the only upside is that I'm drinking the least I have in my entire life, typically just relying on airplane bottles... but those rattlers, as I call them (because of the clacking they do when I have to throw them away from their hiding spots), stack up. And I believe that I slammed my foot without realizing it one night and that led to me finding out about my bone spur, which is a mixed blessing. 

 

49 minutes ago, Curt McGirt said:

Another problem with coming off aside from the withdrawals is the lack of dopamine really fucks with my medication and for two or three days give or take I get super depressed again. It goes away but I can definitely tell the meds aren't working right. 

Good on you for your honesty. I've had relapses in my battles with mental health issues over the years.

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Don't know if I mentioned it here before but I also completed a long, long outpatient rehab course with degree, about a year. It just didn't take, except for those 90 days.

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41 minutes ago, Technico Support said:

You guys are some awesome, supportive motherfuckers.  I'm proud to be here.

"I wish I could just hug you all, but I'm not gonna."- Layne Staley from Alice in Chains Unplugged

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11 hours ago, Death From Above said:

I'm at the clinic because I still have a cough for weeks, and I'm the only person here including staff wearing a mask. Very cool.

Back in April, me and both of my kids came down with the flu. We all wore masks when we went to the doctor's office, and we got a bunch of dirty looks in the waiting room.

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watching an ESPN SportsCentury feature on Jimmy Piersall where eventually someone stops dancing around the topic and pretty much says "yeah, all these stories are probably related to his bipolar disorder" after seemingly everybody else would do some version of "well, he'd just things this way over and over"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tuR7imCT8Xk

although Piersall probably beat the odds pretty solidly compared to most people with bipolar disorder in the 1950s so..

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I had kind of a shitty night tonight. I was scheduled to work a 5-9 wake tonight. My car got rear ended while I was sitting at a light about a few miles away from work. Fortunately, my car was driveable. The other car involved was leaking fluid and undriveable.  Work itself was uneventful. After I got home, I was unable to get my tie off because it was soaked in sweat, so I had to cut it off, ruining a very nice tie. 

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Coincidentally, I parked at my job yesterday and watched a Honda CRV directly in front of me in my parking space (with a handicapped card hanging from the visor) back out, then a nice red car with black soft-top back out smack into the side. They were both very old folks who exchanged information and went on their way. I never got to see the damage to the CRV. 

I got new slip-ons and inserts to wear to work and they're doing... okay. The pace of movement at work is the problem. Either they're gonna have to get used to me being at half speed or I'm gonna have to figure something out. 

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Today marks three years of sobriety from drugs and alcohol. This is the longest I've been sober since age 14, and I'm about to be 37. I never thought I'd make it past 25 and honestly once I hit 25 I hoped I wouldn't make it much longer. But here I am. Doing the best I can. 

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2 hours ago, RazorbladeKiss87 said:

Today marks three years of sobriety from drugs and alcohol. This is the longest I've been sober since age 14, and I'm about to be 37. I never thought I'd make it past 25 and honestly once I hit 25 I hoped I wouldn't make it much longer. But here I am. Doing the best I can. 

Congratulations. Three years blows my mind. I never thought I'd make it past my twenties, either. The way I partied, I probably shouldn't have, but here I am closing in on 44. All we can do is take it day by day and do the best we can.

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So I was supposed to be going to London tonight, but guess what idiot lost his passport and didn't realize it until 10pm yesterday!

*sigh*

I've done a lot of dumb things in my life, but having to go to Stamford tomorrow to (hopefully) get a replacement passport super duper quick is pretty high up on the damned list.  

I tell you all of this because when you see what the AEW thread is for these two upcoming weeks... just know how salty I really am. 

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10 hours ago, Dolfan in NYC said:

So I was supposed to be going to London tonight, but guess what idiot lost his passport and didn't realize it until 10pm yesterday!

*sigh*

I've done a lot of dumb things in my life, but having to go to Stamford tomorrow to (hopefully) get a replacement passport super duper quick is pretty high up on the damned list.  

I tell you all of this because when you see what the AEW thread is for these two upcoming weeks... just know how salty I really am. 

Sorry to read this, mate. Hope you get the emergency one. Best wishes.

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Years of using the same starter in Wordle and I finally got a puzzle on the first guess.  I think I'm free now.

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1 hour ago, Stefanie Sparkleface said:

Run away and don't get into Strands. Trust me.

I just do Wordle and Connections so my wife and I can compare scores, that's enough for me.

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Pretty much the same for me and my partner.  Though sometimes Connections can be SUPER annoying. 

 

Anyway... Quick update!  I got an emergency appointment at the Stamford, CT Passport Agency for this morning and long story short... I'm on my way to Heathrow with my shiny new passport.  

Not sure when they changed the book itself but it's now got a whole page that's basically credit card plastic.   

 

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1 hour ago, Dolfan in NYC said:

Pretty much the same for me and my partner.  Though sometimes Connections can be SUPER annoying. 

 

Anyway... Quick update!  I got an emergency appointment at the Stamford, CT Passport Agency for this morning and long story short... I'm on my way to Heathrow with my shiny new passport.  

Not sure when they changed the book itself but it's now got a whole page that's basically credit card plastic.   

 

Connections isn't as fun without Victoria Coren Mitchell giving restrained amazement like when someone solves the connecting wall in Only Connect.

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They say that growing up is optional but growing old is mandatory. I say this as a 51-year-old man having been fitted for glasses last year (who knew Shaquille O'Neal made such quality eyewear?), and now starting to use a hearing aid after driving Cindy crazier and crazier. Turns out moderate hearing loss and ADD is a real marital double whammy. 😐

The hearing aid (Audien Atom Pro 2) is... good. Not perfect by any means, but for $250 it definitely beats the alternative... I can actually hear the TV again and I don't have to ask people to repeat themselves nearly as much as I had been. It's a work in progress. We're all works in progress.

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