Buy Me a Burrito

I don't know why I'm typing this here, probably because this is the only place on the internet where I have a degree on anonymity, but here goes. My wife of six years has been cheating on me. A lot. I found out because I sensed something was off back in September, and I snooped into her email. I discovered that she was one of the few women that had an Ashley Madison account. She had used it met men to cheat on me with. She cheated on me with 11 men in just under three months. This wasn't normal, "go to the movies and hold hands and maybe screw afterwards" stuff, either. This was dark stuff, sadistic self-harm type stuff. I read emails discussing things. I saw pictures. I saw video. I saw the person I absolutely love the most doing some things that make me uncomfortable just thinking about. No person should have to see their spouse do that sort of stuff. I confronted her about it and initiated a separation. She convinced me that I should stay. We sought out a couples counselor and she found a new therapist. The therapist diagnosed my wife with having a sexual addiction. At first I laughed at the idea of sexual addiction being a real thing; it seemed so preposterous. Now, after two months of dealing with her double life and continually catching her in lies, talking to men and women and meeting these people, I see that she is no different than any sort of drug addict on a binge. It's been scary, difficult and stressful. My mental health is okay. I have waves of anxiety, anger, depression and all sorts of other emotions that fire up all at once. My physical health has also taken a nosedive in the last two months. I recently had an outbreak of hemorrhoids (my first time ever having them) that resulted in me losing a ton of blood and having to have surgery. My surgeon told me that stress could have exacerbated what was a seemingly tiny problem. I've also exhibited some compulsive behavior that was probably brought on by anxiety. I seem to have that under control, although I bought a few hundred dollars worth of records in October instead of paying my bills. I've recognized these problems and I'm seeing a therapist now to get past this stuff. On the other hand I've been at my wit's end with my wife and her illness. I gave her an ultimatum two weeks ago after catching her again and she has agreed to go to inpatient treatment at a rehab facility in Florida that was recommended by her therapist. It sucks that it has gotten this far. It sucks that we had to borrow $20,000 to send her there. It sucks that now I see a therapist and attend 12 Step meetings (S-Anon, a group for relatives and spouses of sex addicts). It sucks that I'm going to be without my wife on Thanksgiving. I haven't been able to tell friends this. It hurts too much. I just want her to go away and get better. I want to try to learn to trust her again. I've thought about leaving, but I honestly can't leave her and still look at myself in the mirror if I knew that I didn't stick around and try everything I could to get her healthy again. This is my last, best hope for my wife to be healthy. Everyone please think good, healing thoughts.

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Calling it: the tattoos Constantine "gave" Ollie with help him beat the big bad guy whose name I can't spell.

Hurricanes!

Fucking Hurricanes.

In a briefcase. I think Sheamus is carrying him around.

I really want to see Constantine on an episode of The Flash. Something tells me he'd fit in with the crazy Silver Age world of that show a bit more than he did on Arrow. With that being said,nit was a good episode. I wish they'd given more time to the Constantine stuff. That's the thing about this season of Arrow so far is that there's a lot of good stuff they don't give nearly enough time to.

Not sure, but odds are one of the teams you root for were playing in the game.

Fucking Hurricanes.

Hurricanes!

My god I am nodding of while typing. Fuck.

IfThe Hurricanes play terrible, no-good, boring hockey. Their two best players (brothers Staal) are giant idiots who don't skate to the front of the net to score. I slot through parts of their game tonight, but that may be due to the Percocet I am taking as pain medication from my recent surgery. Two wins in a row! I feel like shit!

This is all really embarrassing, but over the weekend I had a hemorrhoid. I'd never had one before, so I did all the stuff I am supposed to do; up my fiber intake, drink more water and all of that. It felt like it was working. All day on Tuesday I felt gross. Not like sick, but I felt like no matter what I did I couldn't felt clean back there. I wiped myself and discovered blood back there. I looked it up on the Internet and realized that this was normal. I still felt gross because of this, though. Showered and discovered that I was bleeding a lot more than I thought, but everything I read suggested it was normal. After getting clean I put on some shorts and laid down. About 15 minutes later I felt two hot, wet jets of water come out of me. I went to the bathroom and it was a lot of blood. I immediately went to the emergency room. At the emergency they tried a bunch of stuff, cleaning me and applying pressure to the area and all of that. Finally they realized that I needed surgery. So I went into surgery at around 10 PM. Once they got in there they saw that I had three hemorrhoids that were all bleeding. They did some cutting and fixed them. Yesterday I spent the day at the hospital hurting and waiting to go home. My bladder hasn't woken up yet after the surgery, so I have a catheter in me for the next week. It's a little frustrating. They say this happens from time to time. The doctor said this is one of the more painful and immobilizing surgeries to have, and it'll be about three weeks until I get back to normal. So until then I will sit on the couch, pop Percocet, feel myself peeking into a tube constantly and listen to music. My wife is taking very good care of me, but I essentially have no dignity right now. This is what post-ass reconstructive surgery is like. Also I'm wearing a maxi pad.

Hey guys! I found a picture of the Staal brothers making an impact for the Canes this season:

Cena wins and you people bitch. Cena loses and the returning heel looks dominant and you people bitch. Maybe the booking isn't the problem somuch as it is the whiny people here complaining.

Fucking Hurricanes. Fucking Staals. Goddamnit.

Fucking Hurricanes.

Torts is terrible. CBJ has the lottery in mind and that's it. Also, Hurricanes with the win! That shutout gets Ward's save percentage up to almost .900! He almost looks like a competent NHL goalie!

Fucking Hurricanes.

Good on him. He needed to make an impact. Eric Staal is playing like a piece of shit and Jordan is a great shutdown center, so some of the kids need to carry the load.

Hurricanes! McGinn looked great in his debut.

Fucking Hurricanes.

Maybe she's a Dokken fan.

When Detroit scored to go up 1-0, Carolina had a 54-11 shots attempted advantage. Peter Mrazek stood on his head to steal one tonight. Also Cam Ward is the drizzling shits.

Fucking Hurricanes.