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[RazorbladeKiss87]

I've been struggling the last few weeks. Work is pretty bad. I'm running myself ragged with no help or appreciation. Today is my breaking point. We got a new GM and our new schedule just came out. I'm scheduled for 23 hours. I haven't had less than 30 scheduled since I started. I haven't worked less than 40 since December. When I asked him what's up I was told sales are down and he had to make tough choices. I see our numbers every day. He's lying. He also scheduled a new cook who is barely out of training for thirty hours. I'm going to talk to our district manager tomorrow but I'm probably looking for something else. 

My mental health is in a bad spot. I'm having major urges to buy a few beers, which will lead to far worse shit. I think I'm going to step away from the board for a while because I'm letting one troll on here really get under my skin and my sobriety isn't worth the enjoyment I get from this place. I'll check back when I'm in a better place. I am in the discord so I may pop in there sometime. 

[Technico Support]

38 minutes ago, RazorbladeKiss87 said:

I've been struggling the last few weeks. Work is pretty bad. I'm running myself ragged with no help or appreciation. Today is my breaking point. We got a new GM and our new schedule just came out. I'm scheduled for 23 hours. I haven't had less than 30 scheduled since I started. I haven't worked less than 40 since December. When I asked him what's up I was told sales are down and he had to make tough choices. I see our numbers every day. He's lying. He also scheduled a new cook who is barely out of training for thirty hours. I'm going to talk to our district manager tomorrow but I'm probably looking for something else. 

My mental health is in a bad spot. I'm having major urges to buy a few beers, which will lead to far worse shit. I think I'm going to step away from the board for a while because I'm letting one troll on here really get under my skin and my sobriety isn't worth the enjoyment I get from this place. I'll check back when I'm in a better place. I am in the discord so I may pop in there sometime. 

Do what you need to to help yourself, friend.  Take care and PM the good people here if you need to.

[DragonZombie]

Another evil month gone by. 

 

[Contentious C]

Took my car in, because it's under warranty and the mileage has been shit lately; thought it could be a sparkplug/oxygen sensor/fuel injector issue, bad valve seal, something of that sort.

Dealership I took it to had no fucking clue what they were doing - "Oh, we plugged it into the test and the test said it was all OK!" with no explanation of WHAT got tested and in what way - then they took the fucking key ring off my key fob that I needed to connect it to the carabiner I use, AND they left the motherfucking passenger window down at least once when we had FOUR DAYS of rain forecast, and the carpet on that side is damp now.  Motherfuckers.  I'm going to wait till I'm done with this particular tank of gas before I leave them a review, because I want to see if the car continues acting up, and then I'm going to ream them.

[Zimbra]

On 5/24/2024 at 9:13 AM, Zimbra said:

Last thing I had to do last night before I went to bed was start the dishwasher.  Opened the cabinet under the sink to grab the detergent and it's full of dirty water.  Apparently my garbage disposal shit the bed sometime in the last 24 hours and was just pouring water out the bottom.  Guess I have my weekend project all set for me.

Because I was fiddle fucking around I didn't get around to putting the new one in until this past Sunday, when I immediately realized the one I bought was too fat to fit the space.  OK, fine, back to Home Depot.  Took the old one off and discovered the mounting ring was bent to shit and couldn't be re-used and I couldn't find my plumber's putty.  Back to Home Depot.  Then I realized the power cord I got with the fat disposal wasn't compatible with the newer one.  Back to Home Depot.  Then I opened the parts bag for the new disposal and discovered the outflow tube got smashed to shit in transit and that's what finally broke me.

I should not be allowed to own a home.

[Contentious C]

My piece of shit landlord - or, for brevity's sake, landlord - decided my potential 'new' lease term coming up in the fall should be $250 a month higher than it was this past year, and had the fucking nerve to quote Zillow at me about what "market rate" is.  Sorry, fuckface, if you sit there and say things like market rate at me, all you're doing is telling me what a worthless, greedy pile of foreskin you really are.  Same dipshit who did nothing useful at all about the multiple piece of shit neighbors I've had.  And these goddamn nitwits wonder why people hate them, why this country feels so hopelessly broken: you're the fucking morons breaking it so you can watch your bank account go up while eviscerating mine.

[Johnny Sorrow]

I almost beat the shit out of the other assistant coach on my little league team last night. Motherfucker.  Guy's a total piece of shit. He was berating the boys after a tough loss like a fucking asshole and then disrespected me in front of them. I almost speared him to the ground right there in left field.  

[Technico Support]

2 hours ago, Zimbra said:

Because I was fiddle fucking around I didn't get around to putting the new one in until this past Sunday, when I immediately realized the one I bought was too fat to fit the space.  OK, fine, back to Home Depot.  Took the old one off and discovered the mounting ring was bent to shit and couldn't be re-used and I couldn't find my plumber's putty.  Back to Home Depot.  Then I realized the power cord I got with the fat disposal wasn't compatible with the newer one.  Back to Home Depot.  Then I opened the parts bag for the new disposal and discovered the outflow tube got smashed to shit in transit and that's what finally broke me.

I should not be allowed to own a home.

Every home repair project, every damn time.  Multiple trips to Home Depot, it never fails.  My worst was when I replaced my kitchen faucet and realized the old hoses didn't fit the new faucet AND the nearby Ace Hardware (I was living in a smaller town and the closest HD was a pain in the ass drive) had closed a half hour earlier.  So we had no kitchen sink until the next day.

1 hour ago, Contentious C said:

My piece of shit landlord - or, for brevity's sake, landlord - decided my potential 'new' lease term coming up in the fall should be $250 a month higher than it was this past year, and had the fucking nerve to quote Zillow at me about what "market rate" is.  Sorry, fuckface, if you sit there and say things like market rate at me, all you're doing is telling me what a worthless, greedy pile of foreskin you really are.  Same dipshit who did nothing useful at all about the multiple piece of shit neighbors I've had.  And these goddamn nitwits wonder why people hate them, why this country feels so hopelessly broken: you're the fucking morons breaking it so you can watch your bank account go up while eviscerating mine.

Greedy fucks, the lot of 'em.  I can't believe how bad real estate, both sales and rentals, have gotten.  I bought my house in 2015 and now similar houses in my neighborhood are going for double what I paid -- both double the price and double the interest rate.  I could sell mine and make a nice profit but then where could we live?  Shit's out of control.

Edited June 4, 2024 by Technico Support

[Nice Guy Eddie]

So, as the board knows, I had to cancel my date because I was feeling under the weather.

I have an update. I'm taking my lady friend to the Yankees/Braves game June 22nd. On July 6th, we're going to see Streetlight Manifesto at the Stone Pony in Asbury Park, NJ. I don't want to jinx anything, but I really like her based on our conversations. 

[JLSigman]

Well, I don't know what I did, because I didn't get any email notification, but my Twitter account has been suspended and both appeals I sent came back denied in less than 60 seconds with no explanation.

RIP my account, 2007 - 2024

[AxB]

I remain puzzled over whether Elon is on a bizarre mission to destroy Twitter through intentional mismanagement, or if this is him trying his best to improve it (and the fact that it just keeps getting worse is an illustration of what an idiot he is).

[Johnny Sorrow]

10 hours ago, AxB said:

I remain puzzled over whether Elon is on a bizarre mission to destroy Twitter through intentional mismanagement, or if this is him trying his best to improve it (and the fact that it just keeps getting worse is an illustration of what an idiot he is).

He's melted down into the racist, homophobic, weirdo dork, fraud that he is and always has been.

[Shartnado]

1 hour ago, Johnny Sorrow said:

He's melted down into the racist, homophobic, weirdo dork, fraud that he is and always has been.

...While still trying to destroy Twitter on purpose, as it has been used for good in countries where it has been one of the few tools to get the important messages to the opressed public. And that does not mean the douchebags who preceive themselves to be opressed because the world isn't exactly the way it was some 60 years ago! So, it's a double whammy of a dangerous moron!

[Death From Above]

Yeah I try not to be too preacy about social media because honestly as much as it's a tool for evil it also is a lot of people's main way of connecting these days.

Having said that, there has to be a better way than current Twitter. 

[Death From Above]

Anyway I am 42 years old and currently doing the thing no man should do: falling hard for an egirl, which will be both expensive and lead to nothing.

I'm a very smart, not at all desperately lonely person.

[Shartnado]

8 hours ago, Death From Above said:

Anyway I am 42 years old and currently doing the thing no man should do: falling hard for an egirl, which will be both expensive and lead to nothing.

I'm a very smart, not at all desperately lonely person.

I wish you all the best with this endevour. We all make irrational decisions to prove a point every now and again. It's called being human. Don't worry too much about it, but also be selfaware enough to cut the cord before you are pulled under.

[DragonZombie]

I'm an atheist, but i'm not anti-theist. 

I'm not very opinionated. 

[Johnny Sorrow]

During a little league game today while coaching first, one of my Giants swung and missed. Strike one. From somewhere out of the crevices full of pop culture and wrestling in my mind, I yelled, "Alright, shake it off! It's a New Day!"

Guess what's our new Mantra? Especially since that fucking nutcase weirdo who has a weird obsession with fucking with me is still on the coaching staff. And that might be coming to an end.

Edited June 11, 2024 by Johnny Sorrow

[Dolfan in NYC]

On 4/1/2024 at 9:50 AM, Dolfan in NYC said:

I'm borrowing @CSC's comment at the start of the last thread.  Anyway, general life stuff here. 

I'll actually start since I wanted to vent anyway...

My partner Alex and I are trying to buy a vacation cabin/home up in the Catskill Mountains. Have been hunting and searching for just the right place at the right price because, frankly there are some real deals up there. 

So we happen to find a lovely spot in a town we really like called Smallwood, which happens to be about a 5-10 minute drive from the site of the original Woodstock. After a bit of (seemingly unnecessarily) contentious negotiating, we end up agreeing at a price that's slightly under asking (365 vs 375).  We run our inspections and turns out the house needs more or less $40k in work (New roof, big electric fixes, plumbing stuff, some contracting stuff, some landscaping stuff).  All of this is apparently news to the seller and more importantly, his realtor, who he'd told that the house was clean and would pass any inspection without issue.

So, we itemize everything, and say, please give us about 15k in credit.  His reply was to stall for about a week and a half before coming back with a 5k reduction in price.   Annoying.  Very annoying. 

We give a best and final offer of 10k in credit or reduction.  Just to get him to yes, because if he declines all those problems we listed.... they will remain his.  The reply from his realtor:

"He says he's not going to reduce another $5."

So we walked. 

Such a shame, but onward. I *almost* want to share the results of the inspection we had done, just so he knows that whomever ends up with the house (whether it remains his, or another buyer) is gonna have some capital-W work on their hands.  

We'll find a spot, but buying a place is an inherently and necessarily annoying process. 

Found a great house.  Offered and accepted.   

We hope to close on the 20th.   

Does anyone know of any indies that run the Catskills?   

[Mike Campbell]

I officially put in my notice to my PT weekend job at the store. My interaction with the HR person perfectly sums up why I'm so excited to get out and free up my weekends. I fill out the form clarifying that I'm doing this on my own and what my last day is going to be and give it back to her.

 

HR: Thank you, William.

Me: It's Mike.

 

I texted my original manager and tell her about that particular discussion, and she basically reaffirms her happiness for me to get out of there too. 

[The Natural]

Last week I watched The Crow (1994) in the cinema. I've always wanted to see it there on my bucket list. What a great film for the story told, the performances, the visuals, the music. What grief does to you and those left behind. Tragic Brandon Lee was killed making it. The Crow (2024) trailer aired before it and man, it looks shit. I'll see it at home to complete the set having seen all the others.

I saw Jodie, the mental health nurse yesterday. I right like her. I've been open about my mental health issues, the burning, self-harm and suicidal thoughts which very few know about. I'd say only 10% do. I said I feel such pressure not letting people down who love/help me. I'm conscious of putting upon the aforementioned when they've got their own things going on besides my baggage. My family, friends, here at DVDVR MB and the NHS. Jodie reassured me saying that's not the case. 

Today was the first time I've seen Dr Jundi since maternity leave last April, her first day back. It was lovely seeing her again. Dr Jundi has really helped me coming up with Trazodone and the BEEP Scheme where I do Gym, Pilates and Swimming. Dr Jundi is happy to see me on the regular again. I'll see Dr Eldridge for the last time next Tuesday and thank her while Dr Jundi was away.

Laura's right that I need to help myself but it's easier said than done facing the world when it's a struggle to get out of bed at times just wanting to sleep. My forearms have heavy scarring.

I did my Peer Support Training in April but I'm still waiting on dates to co-facilitate the Peer Support Training and Peer Support Groups. Thought I'd be up and running there, disappointing I'm not. I've talked to Katie who I met on the course since then. We really opened up to each other and said we'll meet up. I want to help people.

March is difficult for my Birthday and Mother's Day. December Mum's Birthday and Christmas. June is my biggest trigger month as two weeks today is the anniversary of my Mum's passing, 26th June 2014 . Every year is a milestone but particularly this time, a decade. I so love, miss and proud of my Mum. Hope she is of me.

Please know I'm trying my best to beat this bastard depression. It's so tiring. I'm tired today. The CP making my body tire four times harder doing the same as those without. I think about that saying nice guys finish last but it's important to be the former, to treat others as you'd like to be. Thanks for the support you've given me here. Love, Paul xxx.

Edited June 12, 2024 by The Natural

[Log]

46 minutes ago, The Natural said:

I saw Jodie, the mental health nurse yesterday. I right like her. I've been open about my mental health issues, the burning, self-harm and suicidal thoughts which very few know about. I'd say only 10% do. I said I feel such pressure not letting people down who love/help me. I'm conscious of putting upon the aforementioned when they've got their own things going on besides my baggage. My family, friends, here at DVDVR MB and the NHS. Jodie reassured me saying that's not the case.

She's right!

46 minutes ago, The Natural said:

I did my Peer Support Training in April but I'm still waiting on dates to co-facilitate the Peer Support Training and Peer Support Groups. Thought I'd be up and running there, disappointing I'm not. I've talked to Katie who I met on the course since then. We really opened up to each other and said we'll meet up. I want to help people.

I think that right there shows that you are beating this. That's awesome that, despite what you're going through, you still take the time to think about how you could be doing something for other people. Most of us have it a lot easier than you do and don't bother to do that.

49 minutes ago, The Natural said:

March is difficult for my Birthday and Mother's Day. December Mum's Birthday and Christmas. June is my biggest trigger month as two weeks today is the anniversary of my Mum's passing, 26th June 2014 . Every year is a milestone but particularly this time, a decade. I so love, miss and proud of my Mum. Hope she is of me.

Please know I'm trying my best to beat this bastard depression. It's so tiring. I'm tired today. The CP making my body tire four times harder doing the same as those without. I think about that saying nice guys finish last but it's important to be the former, to treat others as you'd like to be. Thanks for the support you've given me here. Love, Paul xxx.

We're here as always, Paul. Keep us up on how you're doing.

[Curt McGirt]

3 hours ago, Mike Campbell said:

I texted my original manager and tell her about that particular discussion, and she basically reaffirms her happiness for me to get out of there too. 

Isn't that nice? I was on good enough terms with my prior manager at Goodwill that when I left for medical reasons (y'all know why) she hit me up about a year later and asked how I was doing. I told her and asked her if she knew anything about work, because she told me her and the other manager were on their way out the door at the same time as I left, and she said that I shouldn't go back because only like the worst six people were still there. Sure enough I go in there to look for a cassette tape holder and hear from the back of the store the braying laughter of the infuriatingly stupid and annoying Penecostal bitch that we were forced to work with, and I practically sprinted out the door to avoid contact. 

EDIT: Oh god. I just remembered I was working at Walmart a couple weeks back and one of the crazy dudes that used to work there came up to me while leaving. I wasn't looking up but noticed some barefoot dude walking in and was like "what the fuck" internally, he immediately walks up and says "Are you Curt?" And it was the probably schizophrenic dude that HOOKED UP with that painfully irritating woman. He talked about himself referring to some person I did not know, it was like in the third person kinda, and I made it short as possible. Barefoot in Walmart. WTF man... Oh and he said he was working at KFC but got fired for "cause". If that dude is handling my chicken I would rather eat out of the trash, at least employees leave clean stuff for the homeless there.

Edited June 12, 2024 by Curt McGirt

[Dolfan in NYC]

I just saw an older Asian man walking down 34th street.  Barefoot. 

If you're ever in New York City, please for the love of god, do not do this.

[The Natural]

1 hour ago, Log said:

She's right!

I think that right there shows that you are beating this. That's awesome that, despite what you're going through, you still take the time to think about how you could be doing something for other people. Most of us have it a lot easier than you do and don't bother to do that.

We're here as always, Paul. Keep us up on how you're doing.

Thank you, my friend. Most appreciated xxx.